today was a fruitful day. :D i completed 3a, 3b of my maths tutorial 8a. Finished 8a and 8b of my Bio essay. Much more then i have ever done in one day in this recent week. No more disgusting sense of feeling guilty.
my brain works strangely. for example, during the time when i am in school, i get panic atacks cause there seems to be lots of shit to complete. then i get home and on the tv and start eating pistachio nuts and start to think about what work do i have to complete then i realise "EH, tmr like got nothing to pass up." or "Like nothing to do tonight." then i spend all this time feeling guilty yet i do rubbish like use the com, watch tv or read comics/books. however, the happiness i derive from not doing homework is far higher than that of the satisfaction of completing my homework. So now, im in this complete shit.
sooner or later im going to drown in this pile of notes. especially in chem. i do not understand chem. I LOATHE CHEM. disgusting subject!and look at all the stupid notes we have to print.
its going to point to bad karma. IMAGINE the number of trees which have to die for us so we can print rubbish things like chem notes. at this rate, we are all gna die under global warming faster than expected. prepare to live underwater! :D
i really hate jc life. it really sucks. we stay in sch to have lessons and study and i reach home at an average of 7+8+ at night. when i reach home i still have to study. THAT SUCKS MAN. study study study. this is disgusting man.
plus, the school's syllabus just sucks the creativity out of things. everything is so damn rigid. i hate this place. but the gp test today was lovely. :D if only every test could be like that.
all i want to be is a zookeeper/journalist/chef/f1 engineer. and here i am no idea why im stuck in this JC shit.
sigh,i havent watched ylbfb in 2084752805 years. MISERABLE.
and the world is so conniving. now do i then realise that there can actually be bad ppl who backstab you, who like about you behind their backs and do all these rubbish. i never realised it to be true until now. this is one ugly world we live in.
Labels: jc life sucks, miserable, ugly
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