ptc is over. wasnt too bad as i expected. but the topics were ridiculous. and irrelevant. arhhs. wahlaauus. mrs Lai said i need better time management. i think i know how to manage my time by myself. i actually plan a timetable. the reason why i only studied 2-3 hrs per day was because i was too lazy to study in the afternoon and i didnt have the mood to study.
the reason why i didnt do well was not because i didnt read the question well enough. (that was what i answered to her, bcos mrs ou-yeung was there) the reason was becos mrs sim was unable to interpret her own question and my answer incorrectly. i actually think i interpreted the question well enough and my answer was okay for my history! and the same applies for my english compo. i actually felt i should have gotten more than a 17. its one of those illogical things.
ahhs. and i certainly do not consult my teachers for help. i can cope. do u mrs lai seriously think i cant cope? cos i actually can. i totally know what i did wrong and it wont be wrong again. at this point in time i feel that teachers have no use except for maybe biology and maths. the rest, i can totally do especially english. arghs. and i feel that i should not be here at this point in time. my life wasnt plan in this way.
my day was okay. dont feel as depressed. on the contrary, i feel clever again. i pride myself on having read many books. i mean, even fathima cant compare to me in that aspect. look, she was reading can u keep a secret the other day. i read that book in sec 1. or p6.
i think i felt really clever when i was a little girl in primary school. i started to read harry potter in p4. i knew all about atoms and molecules, electricity, momentum and laws of some physics even before i reached p5. the smartyass. i learnt this through an educational medium, the television. i started using profound language and learnt the pythagoreas theorem in p6. tell me if i am not clever.
maybe its the many books and many television shows that i saw that made me clever. but the thing is. i still read. and i feel nerdy bout that. which is good in MY opinion. i mean i have read more books than some people have ever seen. i have read books that you have probably never heard of. and i read anykind of books except fantasy books with knights and unicorns that shit.
u see? i am actually smart.
i belong to the world where the book resides in the heart and the mind overrules the heart.
i do not believe in a stupid shuyan. i believe in myself.
*if u think this post sucks or it was thick skinned or u just didnt understand this post u are obviously not in the genre of intelligent species and therefore do not understand the woes of a genius. my condolences to you.
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