"If you are in a hurry you will never get there." -- ancient chinese proverb.

so fucked up today. i HATE peeps who are pretentious; sucky up ; wanna actt big people. example: fathimah. she is sooo horrible. yesterday, we had our om disscusion den SHE sat three tables away eating a bloody apple. den today she came to confront cheryl on why we didnt ask her to join in. like fuck lorhs. we were talking so loud for the "whole" world to hear. and if she was deaf and blind den she probably wundnt notice us. but she was neither. but she sat there eating her bloody apple. she didnt even ask us about it until today. we were going to have a meeting with mr siva on fri. and she knows now. so she gonna weasel the info out of us den gonna tell mr siva and say it like its her own. fuuuck her. shibaya. its so damn jian and lowdown. goddamn bitch she wasnt even surposed to be in OM. den she wanna act so she come and join, she cant even make it for the meeting. ask her to go eat shit and fang pi. stuff her disgusting head down the toilet full of shit and flush. this is so frustrating. just like everything else. i feel like i hating more peeps each day. ya. whatever. fuck off. =)

i am gonna flunk all my first tests. they are so damn hard. like WHY??? its only the first test. didnt so very well. think i gonna fail my maths test and my chem one. *bursts into tears* and mrs lai just have p.m.s. all day long. screaming like she is the best. she talks she knows us all so very well and she is one of us. but u know something. there is a barrier between "girls" and her. its the GENERATION gap. its none of her bloody business what we do and how we do stuff. all she has to do is teach us. etra stuff are not needed. our teacher example mrs sim sucks. i wish i had taken geography. i regret like fuck now. *bursts into more tears* why?? at least i can excel in my humanities. why am i so dumb at times?i want geography. the school has sucha lot of lousy teachers. lousy principals as well. total failure.

plus i am anti-social and unparticipative. at least i am not irresponsible okay? i am sucha disgusting bitch sometimes. quiet too quiet, noisy too noisy. i have no idea what to do with myself. no idea how to live. i feel like *burst into tears* that. i just wanna tell ppl who hates me or see me buay song to fuck off. which is incresing. the number i mean.