i feel sick depresssed and baaad. i feel guilty for no reason. yet i feel like shitt. i went to the stupid lousy polyclinic and got an mc. it felt so so wrongg. but what i said was not untrue. my leg did hurt. i had a cough. i had a headache. and i cant go for sports cos my leg hurt like noboby's business. arrghh. i felt like i just killled somebody. i feel bad about all the lies, all the deciet i have ever done or told. but i really cant face netball. and the fact that my parents have no idea what i have done. why i cant go to vjc. why my results are like shitt. why diidnt i study beta for my PSLE. why do i alwaees do stuff that i regret. why cant i think properly. why am i such a coniving person. all so wrong. the truths are worse. reality sucks. hurrrrrrmmph.
i feel like shit about myself and wish that i can put all wrongs right without torturing myself.
i wish that i can tell the truth without hurting myself or anyone.
i wish that i can face up to things bravely instead of just running away.
i wish that i can think back on what i have done without regret.
i wish i was me again.
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